i’m so glad that nobody knows of this blog cos i really am upset now, and i dont want anybody in this world to know why. this is because, i’ve been misunderstood to be of the same kind as my beloved friends. no doubt i love being with them and am really happy when i’m with them, but i’ve checked myself over and over again, and am very sure that i’m kind of, straight. i still do dream about guys and really do think of the very one guy that i like. however, they classify me as one of them. worst thing is, one of them told another that she’s extremely irritated with me for covering up for myself and telling them that i’m confused about my sexuality when i’m actually gay. i’m not. do you see the reason why i chose not to let any of them know about the fact that i feel that i’m straight??! i really do feel disgusted by the fact that they want everybody to be like them. i do not. i like myself for who am i, for liking guys. but why on earth do they have to say that i’m one of them. someone else pisses me off even more, telling me that she likes me because i got along very well with her when all the topics i’ve ever discussed with her were badmouthing some other girl who bitched about us like mad. and, for goodness sake, it was only 2days we even got along that well. i hate it when people assume about me. it really do hurts, when they shoot their mouths out without even getting facts right. cutting short hair, and dressing like an andro doesn’t make you one. so for goodness sake, M, will you please stop all your disgusting acts? and who in the world don’t know that you were so crazy over guys? changing within a few months is kind of, impossible when you have been so into guys, making them your life once. it disgusts me alright. if deep dwn in your heart, you’re straight, please don’t act like one just to let yourself get accepted. it will only make people feel more irritated with you. i’ll never treat you like a friend again okay, trust me for that. also, to the rest, don’t assume, please. and don’t say you want to hit me just because you think i’m gay and just because you think i’m trying so hard to tell myself i’m straight. cos i know myself that i’m straight. but oh for goodness sake, how am i going to tell you that? cos you’ll think it’s fake and wanna hit me all over again. was it really a right decision to even try to make friends with all of you? just to let you guys know that i’m alright having friends like that? just because i wanted to let you know that you’re not abnormal? then. shit man.