i look at you, you look at me.

we don’t say anything, but we both know what’s going on in each other’s minds. the silence becomes deafening. and suddenly, we all just cry. this is becoming so often these days because of o levels. how hard it’s coming down on us. so scary and heavy, and it’s just so… threatening and intimidating. sometimes, i wish i could just run away from everything in life.

seriously, i don’t know what to do without marilyn. can you imagine life without her? like seriously, recess would be left with me and sebrina, nothing much left to talk about. it would be so weird. what can we say? also, no marilyn, no one to acc me after school. no one to share my problems with, no one to stay with me, wait with me, go recess with me and nobody to care for me. i mean, seriously, look at the rest of unglams. everyone is just so busy about their own lives. celeste, lunching with her classmates every single day it becomes so hard to just eat with her after school. laura, i guess i don’t need to state the reason anymore. sebrina, it’s just….. nothing much we can share about. i’m already stressed up. how am i going to live on with daddy and marilyn gone? both of them leaving me, no daddy means more mummy. it sucks, seriously. all the pressure building up in me during my o’s. threatening me with my happy. i hate it. seriously, i can do without such a mother.

laura says: we cannot cry on the day we’re sending marilyn off. oh, well, easy for you to say huh. easy for all of you to say, but not me, definitely.  oh,fish.

how i wish three wishes could be given to me right now:

daddy stays,

marilyn stays,

and mummy change.

is it so hard?